homeless

FEELING VERY VERY TIRED.... continuos bad dream last night!
*Snake* again! why i always have the snake dream with me now?
wat does it mean?

this morning when i try to search for the answer in google... then i got the virus attack from internet.
i am sure later IT department may inform me again regarding this.... virus virus always follow me! =(

last night talked with mum quite loudly.
regarding the house issue again.... then i dont know why i just get cried.
maybe after crying will really feel better right?
but i feel very tired at this moment now...
i got no place to go. force to stay in kl and in TTMSB which i hate the most actually.
i want home! i miss my home! but i couldnt be back because there is no room for me to stay at all.
the feeling is just like a abandon homeless child feeling hopeless and nobody could help this little pity human.
i am sad! i am really unhappy! but who care? =(.....

dear Jesus...
what should i do? What can i do? anyone can tell me?
i shouldnt talk this with anyone... i dont want to share this with anyone..
coz all the people around me are exactly couldnt do anything! they can hear then feel something strange then maybe blame someone around me or maybe didnt comment anything but know something new secret on me!
*haih*

宝宝

好想好想生宝宝了……
看见身边很多朋友都有很可爱的宝宝，这让我也感觉好想快快生个宝宝来玩！
可是还要等很久吧? 明年才可以怀孕生宝宝~
哎哟…… 真的希望明年头就可以抱宝宝了。
谁叫我那么怕输，怕自己的宝宝太小~
不理啦！我就是要快快怀孕生宝宝！

inform'g my marriage - grandpa

Dear grandpa,

this is a letter from me again!
how r u and grandma? fine?

i had a dream about u again last night!
u were sick and admitted into the hospital in my dream.
but u told me that u want to be home and u feel tired and want to "sleep"
i told u " please.. don't sleep! don't leave us!"
then i wake up from my dreams... and i realize that actually u r no longer with us!

dear grandpa, how many times i had these kind of dreams with me? i just feel sad every time i wake up and remember that i lost u! i miss u... the time u were there with us was great! u and grandma... but no longer for now!

dear grandpa, i have a secret! not even anyone around me know about this yet. i don't dare to tell anyone! not even daddy and mummy! das and i planning to get married next year! do u feel happy for us?

but i do really confuse after he really decided to marry! i feel worry that we are not suitable to get marry. will he be a good man like u did? i scare!

but after all, i just think that why don't we try? but grandpa, actually i hope u and grandma will attend my wedding before! but now, will be still be possible? is it able for u and grandma to see my wedding from heaven? and maybe u can apply to be my wedding angel who may come to help on my wedding!

dear grandpa, any updated news on my marriage issue i will let u know.
please send my regards to grandma!
take care~