Dear Grandpa

Dear Grandpa..

How is ur life over there in the different place?
I miss u a lot!

U know what? I had a dream last night..
I consider it as a bad dream coz my sense told me it is not you!

U r a good and great grandpa that i ever know!
It is impossible for u to come back and ask lots of thing from us...
Coz before u passes away, u only asked for two buns to keep there for u.

Grandpa, i miss u a lot! All of us miss u a lot!

The one appear in my dream with ur face is not you!
I know that~ coz no matter in face, attitude or words, it is just not the grandpa i know!

Dear grandpa, if i study bible more before, it is possible for me to talk with u in my dream? Is it possible for me to see and view the situation of ur new life over there? Maybe will be a short dream... maybe will be a long dream... i dont care... wat i want is to know how r u!

Dear grandpa....
No matter wat, i know it is impossible for me to have u back in my life...
Going back to the house without my grandpa sitting on the sofa reading the newspaper...
Going back to hometown which i cant talk with my lovely grandpa anymore...
I dont want the feeling... i hate that feeling....
All i want to have is just u... the real grandpa which i can talk with~

But all of these are impossible...
Coz u r far over there in the heaven!
But i am sure!
When i meet with u one day over there, we must have a great time talking and sharing our story! Right?

Dear Grandpa...
I really miss u a lot! I love u! I LOVE U!!!

公公

昨晚梦见了公公的样子，是看得很清楚的样子！
不是完全像公公，因为我相信那个不是公公！

在梦里：

我和哥哥说的时候，哥哥说他有避邪的冬冬，所以拿了出来。
当那个冒充公公的恶魔看见那东西的时候，就变得惧怕！
所以在梦中，我知道那个是恶魔，不是我最敬爱的公公~

公公啊！有人冒充你来接近我们家人，你一定要赶快约你的好朋友天使们在我们家守护我们哦！

主啊，让恶魔都远离我们！
我知道公公已经回到你身边很久很久了。
当公公想回来的时候，请让他变成小鸟或是小蝴蝶飞回来看看我们大家吧！
主啊，我很想念公公，但是我不相信梦里的冒充着是他~
因为不管外貌，举止，行为，态度……都完全不像我的公公！

I'm a bad girl!

Ooops...
今天我的 manager on leave...
所以我可以很轻松的做回自己，不必装模作样！


这几天都打算早上四点起身温习功课，但是真的起不来，而且真的超级懒惰的。
老师说如果我们在这个假期里都没有温习功课，那么我们就注定一定会“肥佬“
天啊，我有预感我会失败！可是我不能够失败！~~
要努力努力努力了！


国彬一直说我说话很大声。
我一定一定要改了这个习惯，不可以说话那么大声，不可以像八婆那样！
这都是小时候的坏习惯吧？
大喊大叫~我要改要改！


1.00PM

突然很不开心！
难道我也是那么情绪化的吗？
就因为又和男朋友吵架，所以又要那么情绪化吗？
为什么他每次都可以因为外在的因素而怪罪于我？
DIGI is not funtioning well... then it is my fault！
很不开心啊！因为我就是觉得自己没错……
妈咪说过如果我们继续这样下去，一定不会长久的。
如果最后结婚了，也会大吵大闹……


Dear my jesus, may u please help us on these?
Why my dear boyfriend is like this?
I feel suffering if he keeps on suspecting me and saying all the bad things about me...
i need to cold down myself always.....


我不可以再次那么冲动，一定要好好控制我的情绪。
我有自杀念头，我是个坏小孩……